Searching for His Kingdom: Harboring Unforgiveness

The holiday season is established as a time for giving, showing thanks, and spending quality time with our loved ones and distant family. Social media news feeds are flooded with posts relaying these messages, and with Christmas around the corner, radio stations flood the airways with songs praising the birth of the Messiah. Although I am for giving to others, showing thanks for all that I have, and praising the Lord, I am a little misconstrued knowing that these things that which we are to do everyday is honored by society quarterly, as a marketing strategy through man-made tradition.

As pastors and priests prepare sermons on the birth of Christ to suit the holiday, two weeks prior to Thanksgiving I decided to revisit the four gospels in my daily reading of the bible. (As of now I am three chapters into Luke). Everytime I read God’s word, I ask him to send forth the power of the Holy Spirit to intercede in my thoughts and provide me with understanding. One night while reading gospel of Mark, the Spirit moved. God spoke to me through the story about the fig tree. To read that story in its entirety visit the gospel of Mark, chapter 11, verses 12-14 & 20-25

In the long-short of it (the curse of the fig tree), Jesus and his disciples had just left Bethany at the Mount of Olives. In the distance Jesus spots a fig tree. He was hungry and decided to see if the tree had any fruit so that he could eat from it. As Jesus approached the tree, he saw that there was no fruit and he cursed it saying “May no one ever eat fruit from you again.” As Jesus and his disciples went on the next morning they saw that the tree had withered from the root.

Upon reading this story many years previous I thought, “why did Jesus curse the tree when it says that ‘it was not the season for figs?'” At this point of my faith, I thought of myself as that fig tree. Just as the tree was not producing fruit because it “wasn’t the right season” for figs, I was not producing spiritual fruit, or at least much as I should have, because of the unforgiveness I had been harboring. It’s like with shackles tied to your legs you adjust how you walk to accompany them instead of searching for the key to unhook them so you can get along better.

Just like trees were made to provide shade, oxygen, and food plentiful for the body, we have been made to be the fruit of support and light in eachother’s lives. Holding on to unforgiveness holds us back from being the strong, mighty fruitbearers we are called to be, although reaching the level of forgiveness of those who wronged us is a process that doesn’t happen overnight. It is a full blown praying and healing process I hope to get to later.

After reading this story, I thought of the “seasons” I have a credited for my stance in unforgiveness, unproduction of fruit, and those that walked away from me hungry because I couldn’t feed them. It was an eye opener to me that if the Lord sees that if I am not producing fruit for those who require it, there is no need for me in His kingdom, and His kingdom is where I want to be.

Searching for His Kingdom: Calling all Prodigal Children

During his ministry, Jesus spoke to people in parables. The book of Luke, chapter 15 includes three parables that illustrate the concept of lost & found. My personal favorite of these three is The Parable of the Prodigal Son (Luke 15:11-33). For the sake of time, I will be provide a quick synopsis, although I advise you to read this parable (along with the others) in its entirety on your own.

There was a man with two sons. The youngest of the two asked his father for his share of the family’s assets and departed from home, living recklessly. He eventually fell in complete destitute as a severe famine swept upon the land. After coming to his senses, he decided to return home to his father. When his father saw him approaching from afar, he (the father) ran to his son covering him in hugs and kisses. He called for his servents to adorn his son in the best linens and to slay the fatten calf and prepare it to celebrate his son’s homecoming.

The parable continues from there. However I conclude the summary here, to provide you with the following

The world has led us all astray. But despite the reckless things we have done or the scandalous life we have lived, there is celebration in our homecoming. Our heavenly Father is looking from afar anxiously waiting to cover us in hugs/kisses and throw a party in our honor. As it says in Luke 15:10

In the same way, I tell you, there is rejoicing in the presence of the angels of God over one sinner who repents

I know of this parable all too well, for I too am that young son who blindly stored his treasures on earth and is currently trying to find his way back home, from a lifestyle fueled by unrighteous anger, gluttony, and sloth. But more of that in the next entry where I will elaborate more on all that including what led to my time of absence

Be blessed